Welcome to my world

I do not blog. For many reasons, but this morning, I feel like sharing. So if you are following me, I guess you have to deal.  =P

My life is turning upside down, but I like it. I have worked nearly 40 hours in the last 5 work days. ... I know, for you that is no big deal. But for me? For me, that is the first time that has happened in 8 years. I am happy about it. My doctor told me I needed to get a job, for my depression healing. I knew I did, but if you have been involved with me, you know I have been looking for a job for over a year. This on-call job has been very nice. It so far has been just enough work to keep me from being crazy.

And that is very nice.

My poor mom has had my kids all the times I have worked. I know she is praying for a job as well. I guess it is good I do not have a lot of hours coming up. She needs a break.


I am working again on Thursday then after that I do not know the next time I will work.

I am trying to be a better child of God. Something in me has called out for him louder in the last 6 months than I have heard it in the last 3 years. If I had to guess, I would bet that having tiny children could stifle the sound of God asking for me to come closer to him. It would for me any way.  Not for you crazy people that like infants. =P

I am learning again to lean on Him. I need to remember that all that I have belongs to HIM. He is the author and creator. He knows the plans for me. Melissa, please hand the reins to him. Let him have control and he will give you Peace. The Peace that only come from Him.

Yeah, still working on it. I think it will take a long time to hand it over completely. But I have a long time to complete this journey. I know the more I hand over, the more peaceful it will be.

Tell that to my internal control freak.


~Melissa~
The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.